I know, I know, many of you will think I am mad, but I have used Stick and Poke Tattooing as a pain distraction!
Above is my left leg, a scar running down from the top is the very top of the scar that runs about 30cm. There is another scar of aabout 20cm that runs slightly over it at about a 10° angle.
I suffer with a lot of pain mainly in my lower half, it varies from being quite painful to reducing me to tears and leaving me unable to function!
I have tried many different pain relieveing techniques and I find that different techniques work on different types or levels of pain and for pain in various places.
The left leg is often the worst, it has driven me mad to the point of requesting (many times) for an amputation, which was denied (many times).
So let’s get on to this tattoo!
It isn’t my only Stick and Poke Tattoo, I have a few that my wife has done for me and I have been very happy with the results.
The one on my leg was never meant to look sharp and perfect, it symbolises the chaos of the pain and the semicolon formed by the ‘O‘ of the ouch with a comma underneath, that symbolises the struggle with suicidal thoughts.
Without any doubt, this has been for me the most painful of places to have a tattoo.
It goes from feeling numb in some areas near the top of the scar (strangely) to being excruciating higher up.
This is because of something called Pain Wind Up.
When my wife started the tattoo off, at times the pain was unbearable and the rush of adrenaline and endorphines made me feel dizzy. I also filled the room with the most vile language that for some reason made my wife and daughter laugh!
Today was a bad pain day, the pain in that leg and the pain in my hips, my feet were driving me mad and so I decided to add some Red, Blue and Mallow dots into the tattoo myself.
It is something I want built up in the ‘Ouch’ tattoo but this was also a way of distracting myself from the pain and also a way to trigger my body to release those natural pain killing chemicals.
Although why it isn’t already, is a mystery!
So I grabbed a 5RL and a 9RL needle out of the cupboard, also some red, blue and mallow tattoo inks, green soap, ink pots, vaseline and kitchen roll and sat on the settee to start.
The sensation of the tattoo needle poking into my skin, especially in those areas that are more sensitive focuses my mind on that pain rather than the other pain and then of course, the body releases adrenaline and endorphines.
I have also questioned myself as to whether it is a form of self harm?
I know that may provoke a strong reaction with some people but sometimes when that leg, that knee is really playing up and the clonks every time I move it cause more pain, I get stupid thoughts such as wanting to stab it and yes I realise that would be very counterproductive!
So I do wonder if sitting there stabbing my leg with tattoo needles is somehow a realese of those very unhelpful feelings that I get?
I can however tell you that Stick and Poke Tattooing as a pain distraction works, well it works for me!