Of course I know the psychologist doesn’t work on any sort of commision but I have met car sales people who are less pushy!

I have been seeing the psychologist at the pain management clinic after I started to get myself in a downward spiral last winter, I think it’s a good idea for all people who suffer a chronic illness to see a psychologist or counsellor to talk things through.


I struggle with a few issues, the main one is the knee replacement I had on my left leg, it clonks and I can’t tell when it’s going to do it and it’s bloody excruciatingly painful. I have asked, I have begged for an amputation but at this point the docs are refusing, I have even thought about taking drastic action to compromise the leg and force an amputation but the psychologist seems reluctant to discuss this.

I had an hour session and since I last saw him/her a month ago I have had many things that have been very difficult to handle, a series of pain flare ups, I discovered a lump on my testicle that thankfully was nothing and my PiP assessment and pending award.
However within this one hour session spinal cord stimulation (SCS) was brought up countless times, I was meant to have had the trial for SCS last August but I backed out at the last minute. I have said that I don’t want SCS and I won’t change my mind but still its brought up in response to me talking about dealing with pain, yes there is a chance it could help but I didn’t want my knee replacement because I had a gut feeling that it was wrong, but I was talked into it and it turns out I was right and now I have to live with that.


I feel the same way about having this device implanted in my back with its leads inside my spinal cord, I have read about how when charging the device through the skin, that it can get very hot, how people get a very nasty tugging sensation where the device is sown into your back just above your buttocks. I have even heard of people feeling no relief despite having a successful trial and even people getting worse pain. Yes they can reprogram it but some reviews have told of trip after trip back to get it sorted and this obviously can’t be done out of hours.
It just doesn’t feel right for me, I’m already living with a metal knee that I hate so much and I wish I could reach in and tear it out but for some reason the message is not getting through, I went to see a psychologist because I have some issues that I need to get off my chest but instead I was constantly trying to get the message across that I dont want spinal cord stimulation, if the psychologist wanted a change of career then sales would be an ideal choice.

What I really need is to be in a swimming pool a couple of times a week, I need massage therapy and I need counselling (not sales).

None of this can be obtained through the NHS but they are willing to keep on feeding me prescription medication that likely costs far more than what would really help me and the way I am slowly deteriorating, I am likely going to be needing more and more hospital appointments and stays!

By Zechariah Richardson

Over 50, disabled, husband, father and gramps who reviews products and writes blog posts about his life, beekeeping, gardening and whatever pops into his brain!

9 thought on “Psychologist on commission?”
  1. You are right all people suffering chronic pain should be offered to see a psychologist. I found it very beneficial. However yours needs to take a look at his skills. The appointment is for you to offload not to have something repeatedly bombarded at you. I too have been offered this but really undecided. Firstly I was told it can only treat one area of your body which is no good if you suffer pain elsewhere. Secondly when I was at the CRPS conference at the beginning of December one of the girls there said it does not work effectively enough in 90 % of people who have CRPS, I don’t know where she got her figures from though. Thirdly, i have been told by various consultants that they won’t operate to fix my ankle nor my shoulder due to risk of spread of CRPS, so why would they even contemplate inserting a box of tricks and wires into my torso and spine! Also I have heard a few horror stories like yourself. To me I think it’s very invasive. To me I think like you that swimming, counselling, and massage is a far better line of attack than costly drugs and operations that may or most likely not work. Here’s hoping your next session is far more productive than this one. I would be inclined to state what you want to get out of the session and tell the psychologist you don’t want them to mention SCS and your reasons. It is your body, your mind, your appointment to help you and if they are a decent enought psychologist then they will respect that. Good luck. Always here or on Facebook if you need a chat or want to offload. In case I forget all the best for Christmas and the new year. PS if there are words that don’t make sense I blame it in my predictive text on the phone!

    1. I am going to tell her at the beginning of the next session that the mention of SCS is banned!
      I hope you have a good Christmas and that your pain is as low as it can possibly be x

  2. After hearing about the SCS in a book of living with chronic pain, I would be willing to try this myself. However I’ve never been offered it. I’m going to go swimming with Fiance. It seems the best exercise. I also agree about the massage therapy. Happy Christmas to you and yours.

    1. If you do get offered it, make sure it’s the high frequency SCS as you can’t feel it working, the low frequency is like having a TENS machine on and you can get parathesia.
      Happy Christmas

      1. My nerves are messed up, now it’s spread to all my body. Shooting lightning pains up my spine. Migraines with vomiting every week. Numbness, hot and cold sweats, burning pain running down my legs, pins and needles, feelings like I’ve been touched. Then the inflammation that stiffens and cripples me. No fun, is it. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be able to stand or walk properly, or have no pain anymore. But we’ve got to keep the hope.

        1. Quite a few years ago I was kept in hospital and the nurse gave me a big old shot of IV diamorphine, I’m a big guy so I can have a nice big dose, anyway I felt the pain drain away and for the first time in ages, I was pain free. It actually felt strange, very odd, like my body had fallen silent.
          I’m lucky that I don’t get migraines and I only get nauseous when the pain is exceptionally high, but I hate the feeling of being sunburnt and just hypersensitive.
          I would love to be able to walk, just to need to get something and simply get up and get it or to walk barefoot on the grass/sand to feel the ground under my feet.
          I hope you manage to enjoy Christmas, I know it’s hard but I hope you find a way to

          1. Thanks for sharing your story. I know the circumstances are horrible, but it’s great meeting people like you who CAN relate. This unrelenting pain is evil. I hope and pray your own pain will considerably lesson or disappear. However, as things stand now, we should still be grateful for the good things, family and friends. Thank you, I’m happy enough to still have my elderly mum, and finally have my fiance here. Happy Christmas.

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