It is almost like being born again, I know that sounds like a huge exaggeration but Spring feels like that and during the dark and cold winter months, I forget!
Autumn & Winter in the UK always seems like it is never going to end and like many other spoonies, the dark and cold months always bring a worsening of our health and symptoms.
Every year during Autumn & Winter, I lose sight of how I feel during the Spring and Summer, it feels to me as though I am always in that much pain, that my body is fighting me and it is long and very exhausting.
Again every year my wife tries to remind me that I don’t always feel that way and that when Spring finally arrives I will feel better.
And so here I am once again and it is Spring and yes I am in pain, yes I am struggling a bit more mentally during the lockdown because of the Covid-19 pandemic but I feel as good as I ever do feel.
I have been doing some gardening, this is what makes me feel good mentally even though it causes a pain flare up and so I have to do it a little at a time. This is usually to the tune of my wife reminding me that I am going to end up with a pain flare up but you know what, it is so worth it!
Winter is hard, we all miss that sunshine and we feel down and and grey, the cold and lack of sunny days can be hard and the added pain caused by the cold and wet weather doesn’t help with our mood.
Mental and physical health go hand in hand, when our mental health is low it is harder to fight the pain and so our pain feels more intense and that then can cause us to feel even lower.
We can then spiral and I do every year.
So this post is a reminder to myself for next Winter and the Winters after that, just so I remember that it will get better, that I will be able to get out of the house and feel semi normal.
It is a reminder that life is worth living, that the sunshine, the warmth will return eventually!