It is 7am and I am awake and the first thing I do is to check BBC news for the results of the election.
And there it is, the Conservatives largest win since Margaret Thatcher’s 1987 election victory.
Am I still asleep?
Is this a bad dream?
Well yes it is a very bad dream because this is what I dreaded!
Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t worship at the feet of Jeremy Corbyn, in fact I didn’t want to vote for the man, but I knew I had to vote for the party if people like me stood a chance of having a brighter future.
I say that because of what the cuts and the brutal and unfair assessments that have caused disabled people to suffer and unfortunately in some cases die!
This link is a download for a PDF about how Tory austerity has impacted & killed 100‘s of thousands of disabled, sick & mentally ill people in their years of power. >LINK<
And I could go on; there are people far more knowledgable than me on the subject and I feel for people like Dan White who is one of those people who has put so much time, energy and passion into campaigning for disabled people.
But I am not going to allow the result to get to me, I have a choice here and I am making the decision to not to wallow and let my mental health be affected by the results.
It won’t change it!
Yes I am scared; yes it upset me, people seem to choose to not see what is happening, but they put their X where they thought was the right decision for our country.
Boris bumbled his way through and made promises and so now we have to sit back and hope that for once he isn’t lying!
The big fear is of course our NHS but he has promised that he is going to put money into it to improve things and he has said the same about our emergency services.
So we now need to wait and see!
They made no positive pledges about disability and welfare for the disabled and so we know the future there.
I have a horrible feeling that disabled people are in for a rough or I should say rougher time and I won’t add to what is coming my way by allowing it to make me mentally unwell again.
As I said in a previous post ‘Bravo Two Zero, what can I take from this book?‘ I found strength in the words of the author when he said “They can break any bone in your body that they choose, but it is up to you whether or not they break your mind” and that has somehow strengthened me and I no longer am going to allow my mind to be broken.
Last one out, turn off the lights!