Well I don’t need to tell those of you that read my blog regularly that I’m in pain, its now become a way of life and at the moment I’m having a beast of a flare up. My hands are stiff, my shoulders are so painful and my legs are as usual trying to push me over the pain threshold edge.
I have always said that I will take all the pain that can be thrown my way, but that’s as long as my wife and daughters are okay, however that hasn’t been the case.
My wife has been having hip problems and pain in her shoulders and she’s always had stiff hands, recent tests have shown that she has Rheumatoid Arthritis! I’m so bloody angry, I hate the thought of her having to deal with this, I have spoken to many people who have RA or who care for someone with RA and I’m a mix of angry and upset!
I always feel bad that she has to care for me, I hate having to just sit and watch as she cuts the lawn in our garden (it’s big) and when she takes my wheelchair and loads it into the car. I want to take care of her and as the man of the house, I should be doing the heavier jobs, it really is one of the hardest parts of being like this.
So now I’m thinking about how I can help, I had previously refused Spinal cord stimulation as I’m not totally happy with having the procedure and I have read about people having problems. I’m now wondering if I should have it because I need to try and be of as much use as possible and at the moment I’m a burden.
So not a long blog, I just needed to vent