The beardy man in the sky?

The title of the post isn’t referring to Richard Branson but the idea of a God, I don’t mean to offend by the way it is worded but I don’t have that belief and I’m aware of that fact because if we go back about six years (ish) I was a Pastoral assistant in the Roman Catholic church and spent many hours every week carrying out that ministry.
Unfortunately that all ended suddenly and a little messy, I’m not going to say why because it was all done and dusted and the wounds have healed over.
What I was left with is zero faith, belief in God has gone and its not because I have deliberately turned my back on religion and neither have I done it out of anger or hurt. It just went, one day I had incredible faith and the next nothing and the emptiness was obvious, the feeling of having left the house without something, keys? Watch? Wallet? Ah no, it’s God. I forgot him as I felt he forgot me and I know I will get people saying that he hasn’t but according the RC church, he has.
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Anyway several years later and I no longer feel like I have lost something, a God is non existent in my world and I find it hard to believe that I will ever believe again!

Chronic pain is a battle, its an unending war with ourselves and I see many of you rely on your faith to brave that battle, I’m afraid I can never offer a prayer for you and an offer of prayer has no meaning for me, I’m sorry if that offends. Although please know that my thoughts are with each and every person who faces daily pain, I wish for that pain to ease so that just for at least one day you can be at peace and relax without pain tearing you apart.

Until next time!

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