As I have said in a previous post, in March 2010 I had a knee replacement, I wasn’t totally happy with having the surgery and with hindsight I should have said no, but the problem with hindsight is that by then it’s too late!
I had already spoken with the consultant about amputation of the leg above the knee because at that stage I had already had twelve knee surgeries, I was 42 and I knew that the knee replacement joint would wear out in ten to fifteen years and then I would need a replacement for the replacement, after that you usually can’t have another and so amputation is an option. By then it would be harder to recover and my thinking was that I wanted to have the amputation whilst young enough to recover fully and get up and walking using a prosthetic leg.
The surgeon was clearly unhappy at my request, he said that he wasn’t happy to remove a healthy leg and that knee replacement was the best option but I asked to see another consultant and once again my request was turned down.
So I had the total knee replacement surgery and was left with CRPS, the joint also clonks and is very painful but the consultant is convinced the joint is okay. I’m now reliant on a wheelchair and my hips are now also painful as are my feet and the other knee, in short I’m now knackered.
I hate to say it but I was right and I should have refused the surgery, I had to stop playing wheelchair basketball because the knee doesn’t bend enough to allow me to sit in the wheelchair used for basketball. I’m not even very good at bum shuffling along the floor because this knee joint doesn’t bend as far as a real knee and then there is the clonking. All in all its a decision that I regret daily and yet there is nothing I can do.
I have asked for the leg to be amputated now we know this hasn’t worked but still they won’t do it, I have searched the internet to see if legally I can force them to remove the metal joint they put in, which would mean also having to amputate, but all I keep coming across are sites for people who have Body integrative identity disorder and that isn’t what I have, although I am coming to loathe that damn knee.
Amputation would be very hard, in fact that’s an understatement but I just want the chance to fight against what is happening!
Does anyone have any expertise in this area?
Has anyone else been through the same thing?
Am I bonkers? 😕
Until next time!