Of course I know the psychologist doesn’t work on any sort of commision but I have met car sales people who are less pushy!
I have been seeing the psychologist at the pain management clinic after I started to get myself in a downward spiral last winter, I think it’s a good idea for all people who suffer a chronic illness to see a psychologist or counsellor to talk things through.
I struggle with a few issues, the main one is the knee replacement I had on my left leg, it clonks and I can’t tell when it’s going to do it and it’s bloody excruciatingly painful. I have asked, I have begged for an amputation but at this point the docs are refusing, I have even thought about taking drastic action to compromise the leg and force an amputation but the psychologist seems reluctant to discuss this.
I had an hour session and since I last saw him/her a month ago I have had many things that have been very difficult to handle, a series of pain flare ups, I discovered a lump on my testicle that thankfully was nothing and my PiP assessment and pending award.
However within this one hour session spinal cord stimulation (SCS) was brought up countless times, I was meant to have had the trial for SCS last August but I backed out at the last minute. I have said that I don’t want SCS and I won’t change my mind but still its brought up in response to me talking about dealing with pain, yes there is a chance it could help but I didn’t want my knee replacement because I had a gut feeling that it was wrong, but I was talked into it and it turns out I was right and now I have to live with that.
I feel the same way about having this device implanted in my back with its leads inside my spinal cord, I have read about how when charging the device through the skin, that it can get very hot, how people get a very nasty tugging sensation where the device is sown into your back just above your buttocks. I have even heard of people feeling no relief despite having a successful trial and even people getting worse pain. Yes they can reprogram it but some reviews have told of trip after trip back to get it sorted and this obviously can’t be done out of hours.
It just doesn’t feel right for me, I’m already living with a metal knee that I hate so much and I wish I could reach in and tear it out but for some reason the message is not getting through, I went to see a psychologist because I have some issues that I need to get off my chest but instead I was constantly trying to get the message across that I dont want spinal cord stimulation, if the psychologist wanted a change of career then sales would be an ideal choice.
What I really need is to be in a swimming pool a couple of times a week, I need massage therapy and I need counselling (not sales).
None of this can be obtained through the NHS but they are willing to keep on feeding me prescription medication that likely costs far more than what would really help me and the way I am slowly deteriorating, I am likely going to be needing more and more hospital appointments and stays!